re-affirmation.

so i'm really gonna take my time to do this blog. most times i don't really spend a great amount on my posts but i know i should. I've got many things to add onto this page and to express things that i might never mention to anyone, about what i was feeling or how i was feeling. And i guess it helps when i can only express things to myself, privately and publicly.

I had a very interesting day, as usual. very lonesome at times, like choreying by yourself... like all the time... like everyday! but u know u get through em and u realise the result and triumph that has been achieved during the day. Felt good talking to an old friend. She's not really that old but she does her best to stay in contact with me. So sorry that i may never get to call u as i am hella busy and still figuring out how to manage my time better. I'll get there =].

Moving on.

took the train into city and through chapel to get to Unitd Stylez studios. Taught my beginner class. was heaps fun. Dancing again = love! woooo!

and yeh. interesting conversations on facebook. but wanted to paste this reply onto this blog.

"People who are negative or pessimistic always believe things will go wrong, and therefore are depressed and will work harder to strive towards what they want because that failure drives them to work harder.

People who are realistic learn to adapt to situations and work towards their goals with optimistic beliefs in mind. If things don't work out, they just shrug it off and try again. It's a case of hope for the best, expect the worst....

At the end of the day, these are all labels and there is no way anyone can fit under a label perfectly. So really, maybe not look into it so much, don't label yourself as a "type" of person and enjoy life for what it is. As it stands, I don't know if you can see it this way, but you've probably got a better deal than some people out there so. Take advantage of what you have, not what you don't."

oh and more. "Just cheer up, you're not usually in such a slump. Your usually happier. (i am happy =]) hahaha

My final words of advice are, if your trying to figure yourself out, do it without giving a flying crap about what others think, because YOU should define who you are, not their opinions or if "your closest friends" think your negative. If you change and mold to what others think you should be so you can be likable, it'll mess you up. Friends will accept you for who you are.

And just so you know, you've never came across as pessimistic or negative. Quiet maybe, but I don't know you that well to say anything. All I can say is, cheer up man. =]"

what he said got me thinking. and everything makes much more sense. i took what he said and am deciding to translate it to my own accord. i'm figuring things out like everyone does. but trust me... i'm not a big downer. i have lots of things to look forward to. i'm just everywhere with my thinking... i'm complicated... it annoys me but i love it!

just feeling a bit more reassured now about who i am. I haven't felt like that in a while so i'm feeling quite blessed.

anyways. just thought i'd link everyone to a sick song that i came across through my day.

it's a bit dramatic. but it goes out to those who need something to keep them fighting on to the next day. i know it inspired me. so yay!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYJXna1Z3co

oh and this is sick too...



btw i'm like crazy bout this song... it's hot... can't seem to not listen to it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWzlD7Lc6w8