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feels strange... as much as i wanna be here in the states... i'm a bit afraid of coming  back... i don't know what to expect. :( hope things get better when i get back. 

peace

so who's been doing what?

alvin: o

david: o

trev: o

nick: 1 lol got caught by alvin!

martin: o

jared: o

Ali: o

that is all... that's all fucked up...

vegas has been a blast. we just got up to finally rehearse at a studio... called DANCE. it was a pretty nice place and really refreshing to finally do the dance for worlds. we also saw sweet and sour at the same studio. then we went to premium outlets and went nuts!!! wooo marty and i bought heaps of shit and it was sick... can't wait to show ya'll what kinda shizz we bought. mmm i bought new undies!!! woot! sex undies!

after we just went back to our place at luxor... saw the few random pretty women and heap of ... :( women. Unfortunately we didn't stop with there. we ended up buying a heap more of crap at Urban Outfitters! I love that place! got my bro something! sorry marty  but i wanted it! =]

anyways. i gotta get up and get to the new hotel! wooo loews can't wait to hit the pools! lol oh yeh also did an interview today... RANDOM!

sick! world hip hop internatiols here we come!!!

blogging from the states!

it's been 3 days in the states and it's been one heck of a mind blowing experience! first day we stayed at the holiday inn at LAX and it was a slow start to realising that i truly was in the USA. There isn't much to really say about the first day in LA but i think when Alvin and whoever finally finishes uploading their photos you'll see the crap that we got up to. Oh and i did have maccas! but i will say that maccas back home has got to be way better than over here. bit dry and not so fresh. One thing memorable bout our stay was how at some point of our first day/night, most of us got jibbed for money cause we were just gullible tourists! lol it's been really funny! first day Marty got jibbed 40 bucks! and that's heaps especially when you wanna stay here for the entire month! We also took a limo... we ended up jibbing that driver and he wasn't too happy! hahahaha sucker! Um... what else? also went to santa monica... bought shizz... was sick! can't wait to see photos!!!

day2 was much more annoying! we had nothing to do but rehearse the show and it was bloody hot outside! then we had to meet mon and ali at LAX to head into vegas! Our arrival to vegas was truly spectacular... i can't really tell you... you'll all have to experience the lights and how amazing the city looks! 

we're currently living at the luxor! amazing place... but vegas is a hella hot ass place!!! it get's real yuck!!! hate it!

hmm... what else... 

day 3 has been crazy tiring! i've yet to fully speak in an american accent but i did respond to a few peeps with an accent... feels fun! but we went walkies along the strip and it was hella hot on the hottest day on the week! i think it was almost 50 degrees! we all went nuts at urban outfitters, H&M but we're all really excited to get shizz from the outlet stores. i've only bought 3 things and i love them all! i'm really looking forward to getting some sick new shoes!!! gahhhh shopping is awesome over here but it sucks... it's so hard to save money :(

anyhways... i'll cut it short... feel like this blog is rushed... dw i'll try to update everyone asap! right now i gotta get some sleep and check my bank account =] peace out ya'll. miss u all!

trev

IMY

strangely... i do... and i like it.

too much youtube?

thanks mari for reminding us that too much youtube can be bad!

tis very true! so let's go to class!!!

stuff to occupy my mind.

so besides searching for music, which i found quite interesting and kinda cool. I decided to get the Scripts album... actually quite good!!! listen to it!

atm. my mind is racing... not too sure whether to speak my mind or just hide and not say anything. but i guess all i can do is be honest and whatever should happen will happen.

“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” - William Shakespeare

and so anything that can keep occupy is alright... it helps... not exactly what i wanna do. but yeh it helps.





this is awesome. pat cruz is amazing! so talented!!!



Sacha Baron Cohen rare interview on David Letterman



i remember watching this on youtube ages ago... when youtube was only a little baby and it was beginning! tucker was awesome and still is. =]

... *sigh*

9th of july

thought it was gonna be easier. but i guess cause i have absolutely nothing to do... and nothing to look forward to...

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talk to me.

let me tell you everything.



thought i'd share this with ya'll... so sick! came across this again... love the rawness and flavour!



miss the lost kids! well mainly ellen and kyle!

so sick!!!!!

can't wait to get into one of his classes!

a mess.

woke up... decided... what the heck am i supposed to do now? i hadn't a clue... nothing... absolutely lost... i was a mess. i stayed in bed half the day... turned my phone off... made sure no one could reach me. Gosh, didn't think things would turn out this way.

so i've taken up a couple of hours or so to actually begin this blog and i've started to understand that i need this. I need to face this. I can't run away from what i need to overcome.

and it's just about everything. from that moment, things began shaking. I trembled, fearing the worst and because of that fear i knew emotions were going to take over. And they did...

dance, life, everything... meant nothing.

i felt that i had failed, and that nothing whatsoever had even an ounce of meaning. What was i left to do? i asked... i begged... pleaded... spoke in anger... and nothing... but i knew it wasn't just nothing. He was there... listening... he was always there... listening and waiting for me to speak to him. And that's all that he ever wanted from me. He wanted to communicate. Communicate through prayer whether it be through anger or a simple hello, he was pleased to know that i still remembered that he was there.

and i remembered. and no longer can i let this all get me down. I'm glad i took the day off work to not do anything. i needed this time to realise who i am and what i intend to avoid becoming. No longer will i be who you fear i am. I am and always be the person you knew i was the time you loved me the most. And that is who i am. And who i love to be. and i know this isn't going to be easy as things have already begun to change... and honestly... change is something i'm not usually good at, but i have a choice and i want to adapt.

and 2day is not the day to stop... it's time to make things happen.

'cause i'm leaving on a jet plane... dont' know when i'll be back again' 3 weeks... till LA. and i wanna make the most of it. i wanna come back a better person... for myself, for you and for everyone.

this is it. and all we have... have had... dw. those things that hurt won't haunt me no more. Just wanna let you know that those moments have always been beautiful to me. No more fighting, cause its tearing us apart. so let's start over... new beginning/s.

... and dance must live on. It means too much to me... and knowing me... signs are always beautiful and ever so helpful. so your msg was unexpected. I knew i had to live in this moment. and i will...

oh... and i found this inspirational quote. i like it =] *trev gives thumbs up*

"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly." - Robert Francis Kennedy.

so all this... this time that feels wasted... only convinces me that greater things must be beyond what i cannot see. Life is tough, and as always... we are given struggles because GOD knows we are strong. He knows that we must struggle to become great and that this is the only way that we will truly understand what we living for. So don't ever feel that things are impossible and that nothing can be done.

we create the world we live in. It's time to live with purpose. =]

“If it is your time, love will track you down like a cruise missile.” Lynda Barry

king of pop, rehearsal video :(

he was still amazing... :(

at the desk with jess.

at mma. with jess. (this is the worst spacebar ever!)

anyways, just had to teach class 2day, the usual. You could call that special but it's normal. Jess is stupid... sometimes.

Tonight is also karen's 21st and i finally decided to end up going considering there isn't much else i do ever since... but yeh. So i'm just waiting for Jose to pick me up. Finally feel like i can see my friends now. i miss them a lot, but i love my life how it is and the people i get to see all the time. So yes it's been interesting and quite a ride, but moving along i must.

Some stupid things happened this week. I got a fine for having my feet up on the seats on public transport, and apparantly its gonna cost me $162... hoping it doesn't cost that much.

damn... totally forgot what i wanted to say.

*sigh*. so i guess i do wish things were better... or different. what can i do?

but yeh. a cool vid of the s**tkingz with Shaun Evaristo. =]

time for sleep.

it's way too late to even start writing up a blog but i know i've been meaning to for a while. Heaps of things have been happening and a lot of things are being looked forward to!

Things like worlds, states, vhc, dancing, working and sleep. etc. and others.

besides that just found some creepy shit on youtube.



um.
also had two performances on the weekend. funny enough it was the same show, same venue. however, just one clip =] enjoy.

i'll update more later.
nite