what is going on people?
not too sure what to spill at the moment, but i've decided that this will be one of the best places to really follow me. me. my life. the things that i do. it's almost like a twitter but more elaborate and much more meaningful. even more better than facebook since at least you can delve into my mind a little more. but again, you can read my rants and mind fucked thoughts for your pleasure or for hopefully inspiring words of my maturity. lol like that exists? well i think it does?
It's currently halloween and *sigh* i'm so happy to be back home in my bed after an intense 2 weeks of experiencing dance at such a memorable high. It will be tucked away as one of the most amazing trips to date! Awesome friends, awesome dancing, awesome people! Couldn't have asked for anything better.
Next on list of things to do... well unfortunately Melbourne Music Academy has closed. :( but it will be back soon! At the moment i'll be hunting down for a position to teach at a studio. hopefully it will be soon and if you are interested then u should come take a class cause it'll be fun!!! =]
also The Collektive's own Holly will be back to dance with us and that's gonna be awesome! yay! oh and maybe a show reel... and maybe more!? i can't wait actually so much to do b4 the year ends.
p.s goodluck to exam peeps. kill it!
trev
Friday, October 30, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
tunes i miss.
Justin Nozuka - Golden Train
Secondhand Serenade - their whole album pretty much
The Script - Breakeven
Secondhand Serenade - their whole album pretty much
The Script - Breakeven
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
that's what's dancing!
so who would've guessed that flashing people could get any worse?
well check this out!
http://perezhilton.com/2009-09-30-crotch-flash-vagina-on-so-you-think-you-can-dance#respond
thanks to Stephen for this! i concur... filthy.
and another amazing clip from the King of Pop. i seriously can't wait for this!!! you all must watch this!
So it ended today. well, it ended in probably the most beautiful way. serious discussions can always be hectic and intense, but i would say the latter with a hint of love and lots of i miss you's.
expanding from my last post from yesterday... from the 'wow' post. although things might be over, that doesn't totally mean that things won't get better. I guess i have no choice but to be patient and love the things that i still have and accept their decision with love. surprised that i haven't totally caved in yet but i know for some reason its time. i know now that i will prepare myself for the things that are yet to come, because who knows, things might happen tomorrow and i want to make sure that i'm ready and capable to take care of the challenges that await.
on the upside, today i took Tony Czar's class. amazing! just amazing as always and will now be placed in my inspiration list.
now here's some photos from the kaba workshop! so sick!
well check this out!
http://perezhilton.com/2009-09-30-crotch-flash-vagina-on-so-you-think-you-can-dance#respond
thanks to Stephen for this! i concur... filthy.
and another amazing clip from the King of Pop. i seriously can't wait for this!!! you all must watch this!
So it ended today. well, it ended in probably the most beautiful way. serious discussions can always be hectic and intense, but i would say the latter with a hint of love and lots of i miss you's.
expanding from my last post from yesterday... from the 'wow' post. although things might be over, that doesn't totally mean that things won't get better. I guess i have no choice but to be patient and love the things that i still have and accept their decision with love. surprised that i haven't totally caved in yet but i know for some reason its time. i know now that i will prepare myself for the things that are yet to come, because who knows, things might happen tomorrow and i want to make sure that i'm ready and capable to take care of the challenges that await.
on the upside, today i took Tony Czar's class. amazing! just amazing as always and will now be placed in my inspiration list.
now here's some photos from the kaba workshop! so sick!
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Tuesday, September 29, 2009
videos
hopefully ya'll like brandy cause i do. just a little piece to Brandy - Say You Will. It's actually dedicated to one of my closest friends. she inspired me... and basically was the main influence when i was creating this.
It's not overly intricate cause i just wanted to focus on how i felt when the music played.
and a better version of 'The Collektive' at Montanasa 2009. Yay!
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Sunday, September 27, 2009
wow.
where to start...
so i had the most craziest weekend. To sum it up... saturday was shit. sunday was awesome! It's strange how quickly things can jump from being absolutely terrible to just realising that life is amazing and that every part of it should be cherished cause it could be all taken away from you quickly.

moments like spending time with friends is important. not that i don't realise it. but it's when times are rough that you appreciate the things that matter most. I guess i just never understood the responsibilities i have in my life. I mean i do know what i need to do, but you know when things just have more meaning when you your shown or someone brings it up? Well it happens quite often in our lives, more than we notice and it's nice to know that GOD is giving us these opportunities to see what we fail to see. The amazing blessings that he continues to shower us. From the big to the very miniscule. He is taking care of us whether we decide to ignore the things he's given us. But sometimes, we should just grow up and realise that we too have a choice. YES it's nice to always be shown but what about trying to stop waiting for answers and start making them!?
I finally understood this. The Sunday had opened my eyes to see how amazing my life is. Lol i sound like i've been hiding in my shell for ages but that's not what i mean. I mean to say that as much as i can be bored and it feels like life stops... i stop because i choose to stay in a 'boring' state, while the rest of the world keeps moving. I always remembered my notes in my phone. It says..
"the world never stops. you do. That's why we must keep moving."
and. i'm beginning to see it more and more since i got back from the states. You know that excuse... the i'm not ready excuse? well yeh. It was the main thought in my mind because as soon as i stepped off that plane, work needed to be done, and nothing was going to be done without me. i wanted to just take it easy and let everything just wait for me. but sometimes we have no choice... well truth is. we do. you know why? being ready is simply a matter of CHOICE. if you know me and like we hang out, then you'll understand that i have a tough time choice. it's my number flaw and hopefully i can conquer it. see, we are always ready. I don't remember who told me this but i do know that this person told me that we are always ready... but we always make an excuse to say that we're not. We might as well just say that i don't want things to change and i like things being the way they are. but, this excuse is what's keeping us unhappy. i might sound like a hypocrite but take my advice or not... it's advice... FUCK. lol. why not say that your ready... ready to move forward from all the shit... from whatever it is that you feel is holding you back. Because once you make that decision things start changing. You change. and you change for the better.
just for a second... i don't even know why i'm giving advice... i guess it's just the thoughts that run through my mind during the weekend.
it is sad to know that people easily dwell on the negatives. i do it. and it sucks when we could be searching for all the positives in life. life is amazing if we all just opened our eyes. =]
and life was amazing this weekend. I shared my time with my Collektive fam and it was epic! it was my own little sign from above, that i should be so proud of being around so many awesome people. and to even be complimented by strangers who follow me on facebook or youtube, who tell me that i inspire them... like WOW... there isn't more that i could have asked for, but it's being given to me... to the Collektive... and it's time that i start making things happen in my life. and yeh. at the moment i'm still in awe about going to the states and coming back and achieving so many things since i got back. thanks everyone for always believing in me. =] and taco's was awesome! =]

(rob acting a fool)
and with that said. that's it =].
p.s. and yes times are tough. and we're also allowed to express how we feel. and as much as i know i'm at a good positive place right now, i guess i would like to express how sometimes i wish things didn't have to change.
sometimes i wish you were still here
sometimes i wish it was me
sometimes i wish it was the right time
sometimes i wish i was better
sometimes i wish you understood
sometimes i wish i got the things that i ask for
... and sometimes i miss you cause i felt special.
but i know i'll feel like this again =]
(sorry for the longness of this post. keep reading. things are gonna go wild!)
so i had the most craziest weekend. To sum it up... saturday was shit. sunday was awesome! It's strange how quickly things can jump from being absolutely terrible to just realising that life is amazing and that every part of it should be cherished cause it could be all taken away from you quickly.

moments like spending time with friends is important. not that i don't realise it. but it's when times are rough that you appreciate the things that matter most. I guess i just never understood the responsibilities i have in my life. I mean i do know what i need to do, but you know when things just have more meaning when you your shown or someone brings it up? Well it happens quite often in our lives, more than we notice and it's nice to know that GOD is giving us these opportunities to see what we fail to see. The amazing blessings that he continues to shower us. From the big to the very miniscule. He is taking care of us whether we decide to ignore the things he's given us. But sometimes, we should just grow up and realise that we too have a choice. YES it's nice to always be shown but what about trying to stop waiting for answers and start making them!?
I finally understood this. The Sunday had opened my eyes to see how amazing my life is. Lol i sound like i've been hiding in my shell for ages but that's not what i mean. I mean to say that as much as i can be bored and it feels like life stops... i stop because i choose to stay in a 'boring' state, while the rest of the world keeps moving. I always remembered my notes in my phone. It says..
"the world never stops. you do. That's why we must keep moving."
and. i'm beginning to see it more and more since i got back from the states. You know that excuse... the i'm not ready excuse? well yeh. It was the main thought in my mind because as soon as i stepped off that plane, work needed to be done, and nothing was going to be done without me. i wanted to just take it easy and let everything just wait for me. but sometimes we have no choice... well truth is. we do. you know why? being ready is simply a matter of CHOICE. if you know me and like we hang out, then you'll understand that i have a tough time choice. it's my number flaw and hopefully i can conquer it. see, we are always ready. I don't remember who told me this but i do know that this person told me that we are always ready... but we always make an excuse to say that we're not. We might as well just say that i don't want things to change and i like things being the way they are. but, this excuse is what's keeping us unhappy. i might sound like a hypocrite but take my advice or not... it's advice... FUCK. lol. why not say that your ready... ready to move forward from all the shit... from whatever it is that you feel is holding you back. Because once you make that decision things start changing. You change. and you change for the better.
just for a second... i don't even know why i'm giving advice... i guess it's just the thoughts that run through my mind during the weekend.
it is sad to know that people easily dwell on the negatives. i do it. and it sucks when we could be searching for all the positives in life. life is amazing if we all just opened our eyes. =]
and life was amazing this weekend. I shared my time with my Collektive fam and it was epic! it was my own little sign from above, that i should be so proud of being around so many awesome people. and to even be complimented by strangers who follow me on facebook or youtube, who tell me that i inspire them... like WOW... there isn't more that i could have asked for, but it's being given to me... to the Collektive... and it's time that i start making things happen in my life. and yeh. at the moment i'm still in awe about going to the states and coming back and achieving so many things since i got back. thanks everyone for always believing in me. =] and taco's was awesome! =]
(rob acting a fool)
and with that said. that's it =].
p.s. and yes times are tough. and we're also allowed to express how we feel. and as much as i know i'm at a good positive place right now, i guess i would like to express how sometimes i wish things didn't have to change.
sometimes i wish you were still here
sometimes i wish it was me
sometimes i wish it was the right time
sometimes i wish i was better
sometimes i wish you understood
sometimes i wish i got the things that i ask for
... and sometimes i miss you cause i felt special.
but i know i'll feel like this again =]
(sorry for the longness of this post. keep reading. things are gonna go wild!)
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Monday, September 21, 2009
honoured but afraid... pt. 2
how do you keep going and living when some of the things you were once allowed to do aren't allowed anymore?
honoured but afraid... pt.1
it's been a while since i last posted something in this blog. But it seems right that i posted something with everything just being the way it is.
First off i just wanna let my crew know how wonderful it has been and what an honour it is to be able to direct and dance with some of the most inspiring, talented and closest friends that anyone could have asked for. I cannot express how grateful to GOD i am for allowing you all to be part of my life and in my love called dance. There is so much i wish i could do to show u guys that i am grateful but this is one of the ways that i can. To all of you, (well if you guys ever read my blogs), i just wanna tell u guys that this crew wouldn't be anything special without you guys being there to support me in everything that i do. So don't just give me credit for all the hardwork you have all put and the time you've all sacrificed to help 'The Collektive' be what it is today.
on a final note. be everything that you are because you all carry something unique in this crew and in the lives of others that you inspire. and on a plus side i totally agree with everything trish said =].
love u all.
now enjoy The Collektive... on this dodgy version of our Montanasa show =]
First off i just wanna let my crew know how wonderful it has been and what an honour it is to be able to direct and dance with some of the most inspiring, talented and closest friends that anyone could have asked for. I cannot express how grateful to GOD i am for allowing you all to be part of my life and in my love called dance. There is so much i wish i could do to show u guys that i am grateful but this is one of the ways that i can. To all of you, (well if you guys ever read my blogs), i just wanna tell u guys that this crew wouldn't be anything special without you guys being there to support me in everything that i do. So don't just give me credit for all the hardwork you have all put and the time you've all sacrificed to help 'The Collektive' be what it is today.
on a final note. be everything that you are because you all carry something unique in this crew and in the lives of others that you inspire. and on a plus side i totally agree with everything trish said =].
love u all.
now enjoy The Collektive... on this dodgy version of our Montanasa show =]
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Tuesday, August 25, 2009
last nite in LA
plain and simple...
i miss LA... or i will miss LA.
everything was amazing... the experience the people. just don't know how it'll feel when people see me back home...
without sounding like a massive sook. i hope people miss me as much as i've missed them...
melbourne... HERE I COME!
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
classes!
it's sunday in the crazy land of hollywood. well north hollywood to be exact. it's been 2 weeks of LA training and i've loved every single part of it!
and from my browsing i've been able to find some vids of classes that i've been able to take.
enjoy the videos and hopefully they inspire you as much as they have for me.
wooo jian! so sick!
yay gigi!!! cmon australia let's try and get essence down!!!
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
i promise you trevor
As you sit in silence
wondering why,I'll be your shoulder to cry on
until your tears run dry.
When you've been hurt,
and can't believe what they've done,
if you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.
If a close friend hurts you,
and you don't understand.
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.
Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
and I just want you to know,
I'm here for you.
thank you mish... =]
Thursday, August 13, 2009
chillin at the comfort inn.
It's been day 4 in LA and wow it's been an experience! currently staying at the Comfort Inn in lankershim blvd with marty, nick and jared, and we've had the chance to meet and dance alongside some of the best dancers in the industry. Debbie Reynold's dance studio is only about 5 mins walk from our place so convenience is on our side. so everything here is sweet... almost feels like i'm living a double life...? don't u reckon?
let me explain.
here in the states. I'm trevor... a dancer... focused only on me. For once i'm focusing totally on myself and me growing as a dancer. and with only 3 days of training in LA (not forgetting the training in San Diego), i can honestly say that things have been feeling like something is catching on. Like when you know you've been working hard... and you can slowly feel something different. that's actually happening, through movement, through creativity, through personality, everything during this trip has changed. i can't explain it, but although there might be awesome dancers and choreographers, i wouldn't know how i would be without the peeps that have kept us all sane. without the boys and holly i probably would've just said that this whole thing was over. but not now... and probably never! things here are awesome and i'm so ready to give it all back to those that need something in their lives, whether it be dance, a role model or a friend =]. and learning all this has made me truly blessed with the outcome of this trip.
however,
i left another person back home. and yes i'm still trevor. the old me. who had all the worries in the world and felt like there was no time to just sit and understand what was happening to him. that was the person i left back at home and everyone that was close to it. not like left and it's over sort of thing... just like i had to go to LA and blah blah blah... u get the point. and as much as i don't wanna feel like a clean up crew in my own life... i know that there are so many things that i'll be needed to fix... i guess that makes it feel like two trips for me in one year! hahaha. but there isn't time to look down upon it, because i know i'm stronger through any experience that GOD places me in.
coming back home will probably be the best gift for my 21st b'day which is coming up. no material thing will make it feel awesome... i just wanna be with those that i love and those that i care most. like my family who i miss so much!!! guys don't worry bout me, i'm fine! my awesome friends back home, each and everyone one of them and most especially my crew! yay can't wait to see you guys and see how much you've all grown. there are so many people i wanna hug and just tell them that things will be okay! and they will no matter how distant an answer there is. a solution is waiting, we just have to be patient and wise enough to understand the answer.
okay it's time to get ready or i'll miss rino's class ahhhhh!!!
peace ya'll.
trev
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
dreams...
it's night time in vegas atm and while i have the time to be by myself, i wanna take the opportunity to just express how i'm feeling right now.
i'm just sitting on the couch in our room at the orleans and i'm just chillin, listening to the murmur of the a/c and the tv blowing our sound of bewitched. Just thought i'd make sure that i could be able to just take a breath and look at how life has been going for me.
what can i say? where should i start? it's been amazing! the collektive formed... we've performed at many events and had the opportunity to showcase the ever growing talent that melbourne has to offer through this crew at the australian hip hop championships and victorian hip hop crew challenge. I myself have been blessed with the support of my friends, fans, other dancers, family, my crew... it's just amazing what hard work and striving to achieve IT can actually do. It's been daunting at times but there has always been those who never lose hope in you, that make you remember what you have all the elements to make things happen. i've had the opportunity to teach regular classes and have the ability to inspire those and be inspired by others. For all that has happened in dance atm... i am truly grateful and offer all that has been given to me back to GOD. i know that i haven't been as close to him as i have been, but i know that through this trip, he continues to test me and continues to give me signs about who i am and what i'm meant to do. everything is slowly making sense and although it might take time, patience is necessary for me to understand these blessings. thank you so much GOD.
furthermore, i'm in las vegas. In the USA! all the more thankful to GOD because my dreams are at my reach. Nothing can stop me except me. i had the privilege to work with some of the best in melbourne. to all those who represented in beatphonik, i just wanna let you guys know how crazy the experience has been and how much i've learnt about the competitive world of dance. But always remembering what dance is to us all! you guys are inspiring to me and i know that together, with the rest of melbourne we can help dance grow! kudos guys! check it! we got props from crews that we look up to! how crazy is that!? i'm still in awe with how sick our performance was and you all heard it. and yeh... 'politics as usual' =]
anyways... i'm gonna take a shower and take a walk through the casino. will update ya'll soon.
miss u all back home!
trev
p.s - found this thing on facebook about what my name means... lol it sounds good... hope it relates =]
Creative, versatile and imaginative you appreciate beauty in all forms. You have great inner strength and courage and have the ability to accept large responsibilities or challenging situations with patience and humility. Others admire these qualities and follow your lead. You are honest, discerning and self-disciplined and need to have a peaceful environment. Putting others before self your talents are used to make life better for everyone.
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
say hi
feels strange... as much as i wanna be here in the states... i'm a bit afraid of coming back... i don't know what to expect. :( hope things get better when i get back.
peace
so who's been doing what?
alvin: o
david: o
trev: o
nick: 1 lol got caught by alvin!
martin: o
jared: o
Ali: o
that is all... that's all fucked up...
vegas has been a blast. we just got up to finally rehearse at a studio... called DANCE. it was a pretty nice place and really refreshing to finally do the dance for worlds. we also saw sweet and sour at the same studio. then we went to premium outlets and went nuts!!! wooo marty and i bought heaps of shit and it was sick... can't wait to show ya'll what kinda shizz we bought. mmm i bought new undies!!! woot! sex undies!
after we just went back to our place at luxor... saw the few random pretty women and heap of ... :( women. Unfortunately we didn't stop with there. we ended up buying a heap more of crap at Urban Outfitters! I love that place! got my bro something! sorry marty but i wanted it! =]
anyways. i gotta get up and get to the new hotel! wooo loews can't wait to hit the pools! lol oh yeh also did an interview today... RANDOM!
sick! world hip hop internatiols here we come!!!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
blogging from the states!
it's been 3 days in the states and it's been one heck of a mind blowing experience! first day we stayed at the holiday inn at LAX and it was a slow start to realising that i truly was in the USA. There isn't much to really say about the first day in LA but i think when Alvin and whoever finally finishes uploading their photos you'll see the crap that we got up to. Oh and i did have maccas! but i will say that maccas back home has got to be way better than over here. bit dry and not so fresh. One thing memorable bout our stay was how at some point of our first day/night, most of us got jibbed for money cause we were just gullible tourists! lol it's been really funny! first day Marty got jibbed 40 bucks! and that's heaps especially when you wanna stay here for the entire month! We also took a limo... we ended up jibbing that driver and he wasn't too happy! hahahaha sucker! Um... what else? also went to santa monica... bought shizz... was sick! can't wait to see photos!!!
day2 was much more annoying! we had nothing to do but rehearse the show and it was bloody hot outside! then we had to meet mon and ali at LAX to head into vegas! Our arrival to vegas was truly spectacular... i can't really tell you... you'll all have to experience the lights and how amazing the city looks!
we're currently living at the luxor! amazing place... but vegas is a hella hot ass place!!! it get's real yuck!!! hate it!
hmm... what else...
day 3 has been crazy tiring! i've yet to fully speak in an american accent but i did respond to a few peeps with an accent... feels fun! but we went walkies along the strip and it was hella hot on the hottest day on the week! i think it was almost 50 degrees! we all went nuts at urban outfitters, H&M but we're all really excited to get shizz from the outlet stores. i've only bought 3 things and i love them all! i'm really looking forward to getting some sick new shoes!!! gahhhh shopping is awesome over here but it sucks... it's so hard to save money :(
anyhways... i'll cut it short... feel like this blog is rushed... dw i'll try to update everyone asap! right now i gotta get some sleep and check my bank account =] peace out ya'll. miss u all!
trev
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
too much youtube?
thanks mari for reminding us that too much youtube can be bad!
tis very true! so let's go to class!!!
tis very true! so let's go to class!!!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
stuff to occupy my mind.
so besides searching for music, which i found quite interesting and kinda cool. I decided to get the Scripts album... actually quite good!!! listen to it!
atm. my mind is racing... not too sure whether to speak my mind or just hide and not say anything. but i guess all i can do is be honest and whatever should happen will happen.
“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” - William Shakespeare
and so anything that can keep occupy is alright... it helps... not exactly what i wanna do. but yeh it helps.
this is awesome. pat cruz is amazing! so talented!!!
Sacha Baron Cohen rare interview on David Letterman
i remember watching this on youtube ages ago... when youtube was only a little baby and it was beginning! tucker was awesome and still is. =]
... *sigh*
atm. my mind is racing... not too sure whether to speak my mind or just hide and not say anything. but i guess all i can do is be honest and whatever should happen will happen.
“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” - William Shakespeare
and so anything that can keep occupy is alright... it helps... not exactly what i wanna do. but yeh it helps.
this is awesome. pat cruz is amazing! so talented!!!
Sacha Baron Cohen rare interview on David Letterman
i remember watching this on youtube ages ago... when youtube was only a little baby and it was beginning! tucker was awesome and still is. =]
... *sigh*
9th of july
thought it was gonna be easier. but i guess cause i have absolutely nothing to do... and nothing to look forward to...
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lkajhgbvpoiuanbam,l;cbna;lsyh;weaoihgad;lknbac;lm,ncblkngk;ndg
talk to me.
let me tell you everything.
thought i'd share this with ya'll... so sick! came across this again... love the rawness and flavour!
miss the lost kids! well mainly ellen and kyle!
thought i'd share this with ya'll... so sick! came across this again... love the rawness and flavour!
miss the lost kids! well mainly ellen and kyle!
Monday, July 6, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
a mess.
woke up... decided... what the heck am i supposed to do now? i hadn't a clue... nothing... absolutely lost... i was a mess. i stayed in bed half the day... turned my phone off... made sure no one could reach me. Gosh, didn't think things would turn out this way.
so i've taken up a couple of hours or so to actually begin this blog and i've started to understand that i need this. I need to face this. I can't run away from what i need to overcome.
and it's just about everything. from that moment, things began shaking. I trembled, fearing the worst and because of that fear i knew emotions were going to take over. And they did...
dance, life, everything... meant nothing.
i felt that i had failed, and that nothing whatsoever had even an ounce of meaning. What was i left to do? i asked... i begged... pleaded... spoke in anger... and nothing... but i knew it wasn't just nothing. He was there... listening... he was always there... listening and waiting for me to speak to him. And that's all that he ever wanted from me. He wanted to communicate. Communicate through prayer whether it be through anger or a simple hello, he was pleased to know that i still remembered that he was there.
and i remembered. and no longer can i let this all get me down. I'm glad i took the day off work to not do anything. i needed this time to realise who i am and what i intend to avoid becoming. No longer will i be who you fear i am. I am and always be the person you knew i was the time you loved me the most. And that is who i am. And who i love to be. and i know this isn't going to be easy as things have already begun to change... and honestly... change is something i'm not usually good at, but i have a choice and i want to adapt.
and 2day is not the day to stop... it's time to make things happen.
'cause i'm leaving on a jet plane... dont' know when i'll be back again' 3 weeks... till LA. and i wanna make the most of it. i wanna come back a better person... for myself, for you and for everyone.
this is it. and all we have... have had... dw. those things that hurt won't haunt me no more. Just wanna let you know that those moments have always been beautiful to me. No more fighting, cause its tearing us apart. so let's start over... new beginning/s.
... and dance must live on. It means too much to me... and knowing me... signs are always beautiful and ever so helpful. so your msg was unexpected. I knew i had to live in this moment. and i will...
oh... and i found this inspirational quote. i like it =] *trev gives thumbs up*
"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly." - Robert Francis Kennedy.
so all this... this time that feels wasted... only convinces me that greater things must be beyond what i cannot see. Life is tough, and as always... we are given struggles because GOD knows we are strong. He knows that we must struggle to become great and that this is the only way that we will truly understand what we living for. So don't ever feel that things are impossible and that nothing can be done.
we create the world we live in. It's time to live with purpose. =]
“If it is your time, love will track you down like a cruise missile.” Lynda Barry
so i've taken up a couple of hours or so to actually begin this blog and i've started to understand that i need this. I need to face this. I can't run away from what i need to overcome.
and it's just about everything. from that moment, things began shaking. I trembled, fearing the worst and because of that fear i knew emotions were going to take over. And they did...
dance, life, everything... meant nothing.
i felt that i had failed, and that nothing whatsoever had even an ounce of meaning. What was i left to do? i asked... i begged... pleaded... spoke in anger... and nothing... but i knew it wasn't just nothing. He was there... listening... he was always there... listening and waiting for me to speak to him. And that's all that he ever wanted from me. He wanted to communicate. Communicate through prayer whether it be through anger or a simple hello, he was pleased to know that i still remembered that he was there.
and i remembered. and no longer can i let this all get me down. I'm glad i took the day off work to not do anything. i needed this time to realise who i am and what i intend to avoid becoming. No longer will i be who you fear i am. I am and always be the person you knew i was the time you loved me the most. And that is who i am. And who i love to be. and i know this isn't going to be easy as things have already begun to change... and honestly... change is something i'm not usually good at, but i have a choice and i want to adapt.
and 2day is not the day to stop... it's time to make things happen.
'cause i'm leaving on a jet plane... dont' know when i'll be back again' 3 weeks... till LA. and i wanna make the most of it. i wanna come back a better person... for myself, for you and for everyone.
this is it. and all we have... have had... dw. those things that hurt won't haunt me no more. Just wanna let you know that those moments have always been beautiful to me. No more fighting, cause its tearing us apart. so let's start over... new beginning/s.
... and dance must live on. It means too much to me... and knowing me... signs are always beautiful and ever so helpful. so your msg was unexpected. I knew i had to live in this moment. and i will...
oh... and i found this inspirational quote. i like it =] *trev gives thumbs up*
"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly." - Robert Francis Kennedy.
so all this... this time that feels wasted... only convinces me that greater things must be beyond what i cannot see. Life is tough, and as always... we are given struggles because GOD knows we are strong. He knows that we must struggle to become great and that this is the only way that we will truly understand what we living for. So don't ever feel that things are impossible and that nothing can be done.
we create the world we live in. It's time to live with purpose. =]
“If it is your time, love will track you down like a cruise missile.” Lynda Barry
Friday, July 3, 2009
king of pop, rehearsal video :(
he was still amazing... :(
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at the desk with jess.
at mma. with jess. (this is the worst spacebar ever!)
anyways, just had to teach class 2day, the usual. You could call that special but it's normal. Jess is stupid... sometimes.
Tonight is also karen's 21st and i finally decided to end up going considering there isn't much else i do ever since... but yeh. So i'm just waiting for Jose to pick me up. Finally feel like i can see my friends now. i miss them a lot, but i love my life how it is and the people i get to see all the time. So yes it's been interesting and quite a ride, but moving along i must.
Some stupid things happened this week. I got a fine for having my feet up on the seats on public transport, and apparantly its gonna cost me $162... hoping it doesn't cost that much.
damn... totally forgot what i wanted to say.
*sigh*. so i guess i do wish things were better... or different. what can i do?
but yeh. a cool vid of the s**tkingz with Shaun Evaristo. =]
anyways, just had to teach class 2day, the usual. You could call that special but it's normal. Jess is stupid... sometimes.
Tonight is also karen's 21st and i finally decided to end up going considering there isn't much else i do ever since... but yeh. So i'm just waiting for Jose to pick me up. Finally feel like i can see my friends now. i miss them a lot, but i love my life how it is and the people i get to see all the time. So yes it's been interesting and quite a ride, but moving along i must.
Some stupid things happened this week. I got a fine for having my feet up on the seats on public transport, and apparantly its gonna cost me $162... hoping it doesn't cost that much.
damn... totally forgot what i wanted to say.
*sigh*. so i guess i do wish things were better... or different. what can i do?
but yeh. a cool vid of the s**tkingz with Shaun Evaristo. =]
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Thursday, July 2, 2009
time for sleep.
it's way too late to even start writing up a blog but i know i've been meaning to for a while. Heaps of things have been happening and a lot of things are being looked forward to!
Things like worlds, states, vhc, dancing, working and sleep. etc. and others.
besides that just found some creepy shit on youtube.
um.
also had two performances on the weekend. funny enough it was the same show, same venue. however, just one clip =] enjoy.
i'll update more later.
nite
Things like worlds, states, vhc, dancing, working and sleep. etc. and others.
besides that just found some creepy shit on youtube.
um.
also had two performances on the weekend. funny enough it was the same show, same venue. however, just one clip =] enjoy.
i'll update more later.
nite
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Tuesday, June 23, 2009
she is amazing.
lydia paek is freakin sick! she is an amazing singer and i love this song!!!
She's from Boxcuttuhz and a pretty sick dancer as well!!!
btw the original is sung by Musiq Soulchild - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RFwTdrhPUr8
alright time to get out and see the world.
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re-affirmation.
so i'm really gonna take my time to do this blog. most times i don't really spend a great amount on my posts but i know i should. I've got many things to add onto this page and to express things that i might never mention to anyone, about what i was feeling or how i was feeling. And i guess it helps when i can only express things to myself, privately and publicly.
I had a very interesting day, as usual. very lonesome at times, like choreying by yourself... like all the time... like everyday! but u know u get through em and u realise the result and triumph that has been achieved during the day. Felt good talking to an old friend. She's not really that old but she does her best to stay in contact with me. So sorry that i may never get to call u as i am hella busy and still figuring out how to manage my time better. I'll get there =].
Moving on.
took the train into city and through chapel to get to Unitd Stylez studios. Taught my beginner class. was heaps fun. Dancing again = love! woooo!
and yeh. interesting conversations on facebook. but wanted to paste this reply onto this blog.
"People who are negative or pessimistic always believe things will go wrong, and therefore are depressed and will work harder to strive towards what they want because that failure drives them to work harder.
People who are realistic learn to adapt to situations and work towards their goals with optimistic beliefs in mind. If things don't work out, they just shrug it off and try again. It's a case of hope for the best, expect the worst....
At the end of the day, these are all labels and there is no way anyone can fit under a label perfectly. So really, maybe not look into it so much, don't label yourself as a "type" of person and enjoy life for what it is. As it stands, I don't know if you can see it this way, but you've probably got a better deal than some people out there so. Take advantage of what you have, not what you don't."
oh and more. "Just cheer up, you're not usually in such a slump. Your usually happier. (i am happy =]) hahaha
My final words of advice are, if your trying to figure yourself out, do it without giving a flying crap about what others think, because YOU should define who you are, not their opinions or if "your closest friends" think your negative. If you change and mold to what others think you should be so you can be likable, it'll mess you up. Friends will accept you for who you are.
And just so you know, you've never came across as pessimistic or negative. Quiet maybe, but I don't know you that well to say anything. All I can say is, cheer up man. =]"
what he said got me thinking. and everything makes much more sense. i took what he said and am deciding to translate it to my own accord. i'm figuring things out like everyone does. but trust me... i'm not a big downer. i have lots of things to look forward to. i'm just everywhere with my thinking... i'm complicated... it annoys me but i love it!
just feeling a bit more reassured now about who i am. I haven't felt like that in a while so i'm feeling quite blessed.
anyways. just thought i'd link everyone to a sick song that i came across through my day.
it's a bit dramatic. but it goes out to those who need something to keep them fighting on to the next day. i know it inspired me. so yay!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYJXna1Z3co
oh and this is sick too...
btw i'm like crazy bout this song... it's hot... can't seem to not listen to it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWzlD7Lc6w8
I had a very interesting day, as usual. very lonesome at times, like choreying by yourself... like all the time... like everyday! but u know u get through em and u realise the result and triumph that has been achieved during the day. Felt good talking to an old friend. She's not really that old but she does her best to stay in contact with me. So sorry that i may never get to call u as i am hella busy and still figuring out how to manage my time better. I'll get there =].
Moving on.
took the train into city and through chapel to get to Unitd Stylez studios. Taught my beginner class. was heaps fun. Dancing again = love! woooo!
and yeh. interesting conversations on facebook. but wanted to paste this reply onto this blog.
"People who are negative or pessimistic always believe things will go wrong, and therefore are depressed and will work harder to strive towards what they want because that failure drives them to work harder.
People who are realistic learn to adapt to situations and work towards their goals with optimistic beliefs in mind. If things don't work out, they just shrug it off and try again. It's a case of hope for the best, expect the worst....
At the end of the day, these are all labels and there is no way anyone can fit under a label perfectly. So really, maybe not look into it so much, don't label yourself as a "type" of person and enjoy life for what it is. As it stands, I don't know if you can see it this way, but you've probably got a better deal than some people out there so. Take advantage of what you have, not what you don't."
oh and more. "Just cheer up, you're not usually in such a slump. Your usually happier. (i am happy =]) hahaha
My final words of advice are, if your trying to figure yourself out, do it without giving a flying crap about what others think, because YOU should define who you are, not their opinions or if "your closest friends" think your negative. If you change and mold to what others think you should be so you can be likable, it'll mess you up. Friends will accept you for who you are.
And just so you know, you've never came across as pessimistic or negative. Quiet maybe, but I don't know you that well to say anything. All I can say is, cheer up man. =]"
what he said got me thinking. and everything makes much more sense. i took what he said and am deciding to translate it to my own accord. i'm figuring things out like everyone does. but trust me... i'm not a big downer. i have lots of things to look forward to. i'm just everywhere with my thinking... i'm complicated... it annoys me but i love it!
just feeling a bit more reassured now about who i am. I haven't felt like that in a while so i'm feeling quite blessed.
anyways. just thought i'd link everyone to a sick song that i came across through my day.
it's a bit dramatic. but it goes out to those who need something to keep them fighting on to the next day. i know it inspired me. so yay!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYJXna1Z3co
oh and this is sick too...
btw i'm like crazy bout this song... it's hot... can't seem to not listen to it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWzlD7Lc6w8
Monday, June 22, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
mad
clips to mad by Ne-yo. =]
Jun Quemado choreography
Tabitha And Napolean choreography. from sytycd season 5
enjoy.
trev
Jun Quemado choreography
Tabitha And Napolean choreography. from sytycd season 5
enjoy.
trev
Friday, June 12, 2009
the collektive

the crew!miss us!
check out the Collektive on facebook. add us and be a fan!
and check out our latest show =]
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friday night
just chillin at home. came back from the city. Taught a class; a combo to diamonds ft. kanye west by teairra mari. Was though fun, made it heaps girly but everyone had fun so it was cool. Then just caught up with Myscha and jess, and then it was sick to catch up with jose since the ahc period, so we just hung out mma and talked bout how much dance has just been getting us through everything that has been silly in our lives. It's sick to know that something so fun and expressive is able to make all the negative things go away!!! =] and turn everything happy. mmm dance!
anyways, just hoping the weekend will be even better =].
trev
anyways, just hoping the weekend will be even better =].
trev
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Monday, May 18, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
staying up
It's currently not that late here. but my night might probably end up being a late one. Haven't had one of these nights where i could just stay here at home and just chill and absorb the relaxing vibe situated here.
So what i got myself doing;
- listening to music; just any random tunes on my pod, hoping that a sick track might catch my ear and inspire me to create something.
- chatting to mandy about costumes and dance stuff! mandy is awesome!
- chatting to monica... about her pics and how she is way too fussy about how she looks in them!
- chatting to random people on facebook; and now attempting to achieve 50 comments on some part of my facebook page! thanks maria!
nothign else really.
but check out some of the shizz happening/happened at mma with the Collektive!
and just a video of my latest class =].
So what i got myself doing;
- listening to music; just any random tunes on my pod, hoping that a sick track might catch my ear and inspire me to create something.
- chatting to mandy about costumes and dance stuff! mandy is awesome!
- chatting to monica... about her pics and how she is way too fussy about how she looks in them!
- chatting to random people on facebook; and now attempting to achieve 50 comments on some part of my facebook page! thanks maria!
nothign else really.
but check out some of the shizz happening/happened at mma with the Collektive!
and just a video of my latest class =].
Sunday, May 3, 2009
first blog
yo. decided to once again manufacture another blog. This will now be my third. but hopefully my last. Stay tuned to the updates and stuff. Peace!
- trev
- trev
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